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Yesterday was such an experience. A tiring, yet a memorable one. I went to the gym for the very first time. I was really scared at first, but it felt exciting. I reckon it will definitely add up to my weight because I've been eating a lot right now.. I am bigger than how I was two to three years ago. I feel like doing it again because I know that I can make things even better (I do really want to develop this enthusiasm of going there every week) so that I can feel tired but free for the nth time. This is a new thing to me since birth.

I've been prepared on this even before I lifted bars yesterday, that as I write these words, I feel how I worked out yesterday. My arms are aching. My body is changing. The way I do things is changing, but I know where I am right now. This is such a fulfilling moment in my life, and I feel like not giving up. Nothing will ever dump this fire, not even feelings. I feel like a heavy cloud, ready to scream out its rain so that it can be heard. This is one of the ways on how to live this life.

I've been emotional these past few days, I know, but this will shrink in the moment I wake up tomorrow. I forget some of the bitterest for the better. This way I will smile again like how I did before. If you are curious on why am I saying these... I remember how many times I have fallen in love and I know where this feeling is heading at. Sometimes, it's a gamble to fall in love. One doesn't know what's in the mind of others. We don't even know if people are going to miss us. I don't want to write about my love life so I'll just scrap that. This is why I feel like I would never fall in love again.

On the side note, I received two books yesterday from Penguin Books! I felt  the thrill of waiting on the post office and filling up papers to finally claim an box filled with books! My hands were even shaking when I was opening the box. I got Dickens' David Copperfield and Nabokov's Speak Memory yesterday! How cool is that? I really am so happy that Penguin Books supports my book blog. Many things are happening in this simple life. This is just so amazing.